Here is an important piece of information about me: I have had bad skin almost my entire life. Actually that sounds wrong because at this point I don't feel like my skin is doing something to me but rather that I am doing something to my skin. And I don't know what it is.
I have had acne in one form or another since I was 12. And I am very ashamed of it. I always felt and still feel there is something wrong with because of that. I have tried every solution under the sun and never got completely rid of it.
At one point, while still living in London I managed to reduce it to very minimal levels than did some microdermoabrassion and at the ripe age of 27 had OK skin. But then a stressful time came along and it started again, and it went up and down, up and down, until last winter it started going bad again and I am now at a point where I lost almost all hope and things are... bad.
The reason I am writing this is because I want to get it out there exactly because of the shame I feel about it... and I think I am on a verge of accepting it. Accepting like people accept they have an illness. Something not too serious, but still chronic and persistent. Like type 1 diabetes. Because this is how much out of control I feel about it.
I do want to say that at the moment there are a few products that are keeping me sane and stop me from crying before I leave the house in the morning (unfortunately I don't have an illustration for each one).
1. La Roche Posay Effeclar cleanser.
2. Giorgio Armani Luminous silk foundation (This saved me during fashion week. I swear, if I didn't have it I might have not gone).
3. Vichy Dermablend foundation (stays on and has great coverage)
4. Trilogy Rosehip oil (again hope it might fix any long term damage)
5. Australian organic's Tea tree oil (I try not to be too aggressive to my skin so I go natural wherever I can)